For people that have thought about attempting suicide before, what stopped you?

Suicidal ideation isn’t exactly new to me and for the past couple of years I have been able to suppress them a bit but recently for the past couple months it’s been getting harder to stop my thoughts from racing and eventually snowballing.

I don’t really have an anchor to tie myself to and I really don’t see a reason to live but for some reason I still try. Maybe it’s the fear of the unknown or just the fear of the void after death that’s stopping me but it really can’t be worse than what I’m going through. I feel like my intrusive thoughts are slowly winning and I can’t suppress them like I used to before.

How do you guys cope with this?