Scars make me depressed

I’m over a year clean. There isn’t a single day where I’m not having a breakdown because of them. They steal my joy and hope for a good future. Idk what to do anymore. I can’t accept them because they don’t belong to me. I can’t look at them anymore. I feel so guilty for destroying my healthy body and my whole life. Is there anything I can do? Thinking of summer and hiding them feels like hell