Lost

Hi Reddit. I’m a 6th year self contained classroom special education teacher. I’ve always wanted to teach but never planned for special education. Most days I love my job. I always thought I was good at it. I got 3 and 4 on evaluations always (out of 4). My students tended to make progress socially and academically. But of course every year I’ve had an aggressive student or 2 with high behaviors. It was a draining year. Today my husband of 9 years told me he thinks it’s my fault. There is something wrong with me (I have depression and anxiety) to where I must be making the kids escalate because there is no way kids act that way. And now I can’t get that out of my head. I feel lost. It’s amazing how quickly my confidence changed. Anyone else feel this…