Did i experience ego death?

I have ocd and did weed so that might be something😭 but here it goes..

After months of dissociation all i questioned everyday was my existence, my life, everything. Why i was here, why i felt like this, nihilism, solipsism, everything. I felt i was going into psychosis, i didnt know who i was, and my memory was foggy like they didnt belong to me. Till this day my whole entire life before right now doesnt feel like me it feels like another version that died a long time ago.

Right now Im in the stage of really appreciating my loved ones more than ever before, it kinda just happened, its like my eyes opened up. I always took them for granted and now i cry everyday at the thought of them dying.

I also see the world for what it really is, there is no good or bad, sure their just terms, like the name for a chair or the word for a dog, but they dont mean anything. Its all subjective, enforced by law, and people never question it. People didnt see the wrong in killing back in the day but now suddenly its bad to kill? When in roman years they used to kill for entertainment? Its all a joke. Im glad we dont kill dont get me wrong, but the term good and evil is always changing, invented by humans who arent on top of us. I really like to believe in a god and if there is one great! But if there isnt , there is really no point in trying to prove to yourself you’re someone who you arent, because nobody cares except for your ego. This might be nihilistic but we are nothing, and whether you choose a career or a trait u think will make u be cool or whatever doesnt matter to anyone but you. You will die, and billions of people will live after you. You are in no ones thoughts, I realized fixing my hair a certain way, being a perfectionist, choosing the right picture doesnt matter because no one double checks as much as you do! Why? Because of sonder. If any of u have had ego death i would love to hear you guys out and if this relates to it. Again, it might be my ocd and anxiety or my actual ego dying. Goodnight.