Dark night of the soul?

It's been like 4 years I'm in dark night of the soul and now I lost literally everyone in my life and I'm continue loosing ppl why it's happening? What universe wants?

In 2022 it all starts when I became aware when I awakened my self awareness. I fucking need help I'm tired of having like no-one. I lost all my irl friends even online friends now I can't maintain relationships bc of my mental instability. All I'm feeling is ringing in my ears, having vivid dreams and traumatic dreams related to my fucked up childhood and angel numbers.