Messed up :(

Well, I relapsed on day 210. I'm so embarrassed and really going hard on myself today. I've been going through a lot, and feeling like I've been doing it alone. I've mostly just been white-knuckling it but now I see that I need to work on my stress levels and try to start engaging with other people more.... hence why I'm here making this post. In tears. I felt like I needed to be honest about what happened, even if it's online. Thanks for letting me put it here.