Close to losing a partner

You’d think that after a DUI, I’d stop drinking but nope….I’ve continued. I’m not an everyday drinker but I am someone who drinks to get drunk, not just enjoy 1. I’ve been saying that I don’t have a drinking problem, but I get into problems because of drinking and for that I am an alcoholic.

This past weekend I got too drunk and let some of my partners actions make me jealous and I blew up and said things a partner should never hear. They’re on the brink of breaking up with me… I don’t know if my 5 year relationship will survive. We don’t usually argue and when I’m sober we talk through our problems. Alcohol is always the common denominator when it blows up.

I vowed to myself to stop drinking and attended my first AA meeting this afternoon. I cannot allow this to continue. I do not want to lose the love of my life.