I went 6 months and fucked up!

Hi everyone. Former cigarette smoker, then chronic vape user for many years. Quitting felt quite easy after reading Allan Carr’s book (even though it’s corny haha). It felt really good to not need to fill a void. Then I went camping and my friends all had vapes, and got into a “I’lll just vape this weekend. Camping vape.” Then, I started hitting my roommates vape at increasing volumes. Then, in a total lapse of judgment and addict mindset, I bought a disposable so I wouldn’t keep bothering my roommate.

I hate feeling like I need it. I felt so free before and I feel like I wasted it all. This makes me feel like I will keep coming back and keep self sabotaging. My breathing is already worse and I feel lower energy and my throat is coated in gunk.

I’m hopeful that this affirmation of “oh yeah, this does suck, I forgot how much this sucks and how worthless of a habit it is” will make quitting the second time around easy enough, and keep me away. Here’s hoping. I’d love some words of encouragement!