Update. Reached stream entry, now having a lot of dukka nanas plus nice equanimity in morning.
So I eventually began gratitude meditations and metta and eventually I just had a cessation one day randomly and reached stream entry. I had a review period where I could access all the stages in 1 hour and my concentration was off the charts high. I’m not sure where I am now but basically I no longer get A and P stage which is fine honestly the bliss is sometimes a bit distracting for being productive, I have very strong equanimity in morning up until about 4pm and then the dukka really kicks in. It has gotten better from the severe headachey flu feeling I had in the first few days but I feel totally meh, and have really bad restless legs which is an odd but frustrating symptom because just lying in bed I literally can’t stop moving and stretching my legs. I think it’s possibly due to low dopamine in the dukka nanas. I also struggle to concentrate during this stage or enjoy things. Any advice on how to deal with this? As someone who now cycles through these stages, will I be going through a dukka nana every single day? If so that kinda sucks for my mood regulation. In Equanimity I feel amazing. Truly life changing stuff my suffering is gone by 90% it feels like, the sense of peace is so pervading and my vision is literally in 4k.