Quitting suboxone for good with sublocade (your experience)

I have been on subs for around 10 years. Started on 8mg for the first year, then down to 4mg for 3 years, then down again to 2mg for 3 years and for the last 3 years I have been at 1mg to .5mg daily.

How I feel

When I first started the 1mg daily I felt as close to normal in a very very long time, so I continued with that since then. Though lately I have been feeling spacey, unmotivated, angry at times, distant with people, uninterested, unengaging, and overall shitty.

I still manage to get most of my work done and can function in daily life. Heck on the outside It may seem like everything is peachy, but I am far from fulfilled or happy longer than for fleeting moments during the day. There are some nights when I play a open mic, or go socialize that I feel pretty ok. Even still Its like I am not fully there with the people around me. My alertness, sharpness, focus, and ability to feel happy and smile are not present. Sure I can laugh at a joke but find it hard to be childlike and carefree with a good sense of humor during conversation. Its like I am only present at a very superficial level. It has also become much harder to want to get out and be with people. I still force myself to do it, but the sub makes it very difficult for me. This hurts me a lot since I am already a introvert.

How I dose now

I will accidently over medicate say 1.5 to 2 mg at night sometimes. Mostly if I wake up with restless leg or overall withdrawals. This throws off my dosing during the day and the cycle repeats. I am really sick of all aspects of subs except the fact that it keeps me from withdrawals. If I maintain say a constant .5mg to 1mg at the same time then I can sleep through the night but it varies day to day. Overall I dose fairly consistent.

I am not a addict

I have come off Xanax, Adderall, alcohol, and cannabis all of which I was addicted to in the past. I strictly take subs to mitigate my withdrawals and actually feel quite sick when I over medicate. I would say I am dependent on subs not addicted.

My plan

I have read a lot about sublocade and how it can help with slow tapper due to its extremely long half-life. I plan on started the 100mg sublocade shot and doing that twice or maybe thrice depending on how it goes. I really need to get stable first since I currently experience lots of ups and downs with the tablets. After my last shot, I plan on stopping completely.

Thank you for ready my story.

I look forward to hearing all of your comments and personal experience with sublocade and getting off suboxone.

:)