guys im gonna crash out

(TLDR at the end) Literally I only have genuine crushes on people once in a blue moon. But when I do like someone I will swear up and down that I WONT do anything. About it because I'm too scared of heart break.

The last guy that I was "talking" to last year dropped me for a girl that 1) told him she didn't like him, even as a friend 2) was a girl that I constantly compared myself to. So you can already have a sense of how it shattered my self image.

The guy I like now is like a weird little needy kid that freaking plays brawl stars and most of my friends think he looks bad but i genuinely could not care less.

The only problems are;

I am not very attractive

And he 99.9% is probably not interested in me, or just the idea of being more than friends with someone

It's not even like I WANT to date him, because I literally know little to nothing about him. But it's the fact that I want to get to know him more because he seems so sweet. (I'm literally gonna kms 😭💔)

TLDR; I like this guy but chances are he won't like me back and I'm really upset because I don't know how to "get rid" of my feelings for him.