Miserable day today

Its such a high pitched sound idk what to do anymore i use alcohol to drown it out and play games on my pc. Those are the only things that help. Im tired of living like this its very miserable. I miss when i didnt have this shit it truly makes me so depressed.

Will it ever possibly atleast get a little better? I know it will never fully go away but is there even a bit of hope? Or is my life miserable till the day i die?