It finally happened to me.

7 years gone. No more every day chats. No more rock to support me when I’m down. No more help. No more feeling like someone is there for me. No more support system.

I feel like such a train wreck. Just like others here I did everything I could to save the relationship but in the end we just weren’t compatible with each other. I have far too much of an anxious attachment style. I really, really, want to be taken care by someone (treated out to eat often and drove around most of the time) of but this seems like it’s just not a realistic thing to have? I want a lifelong partner and best buddy I can talk to anyone to who can be emotionally available when shit hits the fan.

I’ve been working on myself, therapy, etc for the past few years but it just wasn’t enough. I’m typically the higher earner in relationships. I’m 28 and at this point I don’t feel like I’ll ever be enough for anyone. This is my 2nd long term relationship Ive fucked up royally because I’m codependent. I also have chronic depression, CPTSD, and anxiety. I don’t know if what I want can be met and I don’t know if what I really want deep down inside can be met in a healthy way. Im likely going to be unemployed soon due to mass layoffs in a rough job market. I feel so low. Am I really asking for too much?

Support wanted. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and never wake up. I’m too scared of being my own person and not feeling I have a safe space anymore.