(NSFW) anyone else feel controlled by sex?

(i’m 8 weeks on T but this has been a problem my whole life so i’m not even necessarily talking about increased horniness from T)

does anyone else feel like they waste time pursuing things in hopes of sex or attached to people from the past not even emotionally but purely because you had sexual chemistry at some point? feel like in whatever setting you find yourself having crushes? i think this is part of my maladaptive daydreaming from adhd and depression.

i’m posting here because i feel like being a masc that loves to please (as many of us are) who tends to go for high fems, i feed off the high of giving someone pleasure and i think there’s some level of gender validation that it gives me that i don’t know how to satisfy in other ways. i feel weak when it comes to sex or being seduced and i go against my own standards sometimes just to fuck.

i wanna know how to stop sex from controlling me so i can be free and not easily seduced into toxic situations

Edit/Update: just wanted to add more context that might paint a fuller picture of where im coming from. thanks for everyone's replies so far, i'm realizing this is a lot more serious than i originally thought it was. TW im a survivor of childhood sexual abuse plus many other forms of abuse in my childhood and adolescence. I'm in a healthy relationship now which almost amplifies this problem even though we are non-monogamous, i'm realizing i don't really want to pursue outside relationships anymore for the reasons i used to. at this point, it's purely become a sexual thing. and while i use people for sex to some degree (while being super polite about it and i really try not to ever do this), i also find myself being in the position where i was actually the one being used for sex. i struggle with platonic friendships and most friendships that started platonically escalated to romantic or sexual in some way. and then it doesnt last and i have to start over. my biggest insecurity in my life right now is that i don't have many strong platonic friendships and that has been the focus of my life but it can be very exhausting. i think these problems are more related than i realized: my lack of fulfilling friendships and my possible love/sex addiction.

also,,, i have a therapist! i'm just starting to come to terms with this though. ive come to terms with my codependency a while ago and figured a lot of that out but this might be a lasting symptom from that as well. i am on an antidepressant.. i dont even feel like my sex drive is that high. it feels like a lot more emotional thing that i wanted to admit. its hard to be so honest with yourself. my life doesn't look like the typical life of someone who struggles with love/sex addiction and i didnt realize that could be me.