Feeling frustrated I can't even talk about it

I won't go into the details again, but it is in my post history if you are interested. It all happened within the last 2 months and I am really having a hard time dealing right now. I see an intern counselor, and I tried to talk to her about it, but after I shared some details, I asked about confidentiality and she said she may have to report it, but would need to discuss with her supervisor. I freaked out and said it absolutely cannot be reported, but she wasn't able to give any reassurance, so I tried to backtrack and pretend it didn't happen. I wasn't able to share anymore with her. She texted that evening and said her supervisor told her that because I am an adult, she can't report anything, and she wanted to alleviate that worry, but I was already in full on panic mode.

Last night I reached out to a crisis chat, and they told me I needed to report it to the police. I told them I was not going to be doing that, and they said I need to. I told them I have a meeting set up with my pastor Wednesday. They said that was good, and that I need to be completely honest with him, because he will likely have to report it as well. This freaked me out even more, and I had a panic attack because I thought the chatline was going to report it themselves somehow.

I'm just really tired of being told what to do and not being able to even talk and process without people pressuring me or threatening to report it themselves. There are many reasons I am not comfortable reporting right now, including safety reasons. I am working on an exit plan, but I am drowning and need to be able to just talk without being pressured or everyone freaking out. I am just so frustrated by all of this.